I thought I could stay away <br />But I just couldn't bare it anymore <br />It was calling my name so I had to <br />I know I gave in <br /> <br />But I can't be strong <br />I never was and never will be <br />I knew it this strength wouldn't last <br /> <br />I'm weak as weak can be <br />I saw the knife one to many times <br />I tried to hold myself back <br />But I couldn't <br /> <br />And it felt good to see marks on me once again <br />To feel the pain <br />To feel alive <br />But now I want more and more its my addiction <br /> <br />I tried to kill it but it wouldn't die <br />It had me trapped and I couldn't get out <br />Suicide is no longer on my wish list <br />But I still feel alone <br /> <br />I still have this pain it lingers me <br />I wish I didn't have it <br />And I wish pain didn't exist <br />But it does and it hit me <br /> <br />I thought I could be happy <br />But I should know better than that <br />Cause pain follows me everywhere I go <br />And cutting is my addiction <br /> <br />I admit it now I want to do it more and more <br />Just to see the scars to feel alive <br />Sometimes addictions come and go <br />And I thought this one was gone <br /> <br />But it came back at my front door <br />And now its back to stay <br />Cutting is mine for always <br />Its an addiction and its hard to break<br /><br />ESPN CHICK<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/addiction-26/
