Have you ever held back tears so hard <br />It makes you choke? <br />Have you ever held onto something so tight <br />Eventually it broke? <br /> <br />Have you ever cried so much <br />You can't feel each tear? <br />Have you been scared to turn off your music <br />Because of what you'll hear? <br /> <br />Have you ever not wanted to wipe your eyes <br />Because then you'll see? <br />Have you ever not wanted to wake up <br />Because that's reality? <br /> <br />Have you ever mumbled one thing <br />That just fills you with pain? <br />Have you ever wondered what went wrong <br />And rethink life again? <br /> <br />Have you ever been so close to ending it <br />The knifes pressed against your wrist? <br />Have you ever wondered how they'd cope <br />If you didn't exist? <br /> <br />Have you ever held a picture <br />And just wished you were there? <br />Have you ever seen someone crying <br />And just need to stare? <br /> <br />Have you ever lied to someone <br />When you say that you're alright? <br />Have you ever laid on your bed <br />And held your pillow tight? <br /> <br />Have you ever looked through your phonebook <br />Just incase you want to tell? <br />Have you ever decided that earth <br />Can't be too different to hell? <br /> <br />Have you ever missed someone so much <br />You just can't face life? <br />Have you ever felt a little twisted <br />Staring at a knife? <br /> <br />Have you ever hated someone so much <br />You can't get out of bed? <br />Have you ever wanted to scream out <br />All the feelings in your head? <br /> <br />Have you ever wrote so hard and quick <br />You make your fingers sting? <br />Then realised that a thousand poems <br />Wouldn't change a thing?<br /><br />Carla Nestoros<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/have-you-ever-my-first-poem/
