I often wonder will I be one of the lucky ones <br />To be given a new reprieve on life... <br />Given a second chance to appreciate <br />All the things in life I have taken for granted. <br />Suicidal thoughts and attempts thru out the years <br /> <br />When I should have held fast to all that is dear to me <br />The beauty that I was too selfish to acknowledge... <br />I want to live life to its fullest, watch my kids grow <br />Walk in the rain, play in the sun... <br />I know we all must go sometime but please, please <br />Not this soon... not with cancer <br /> <br />The suffering of endings and new beginnings. <br />I weep, but not in horrible pain, not in the pain and fear of <br />Being abandoned, left alone, sweltering in my own mind’s rhetoric. <br />My tears now are of life and lives lived and unlived. <br />Songs that have not yet been sung, I weep in joy, <br />I dance among the stars, I long for the beauty of the <br />waves of the ocean to return to me. <br />Pulsing over and over me in ecstatic abandon. <br />My blood remembering the feel of life; <br />the Heavens exploding above my Head. <br />The stars shooting, falling for Just us. <br /> <br /> <br />31.December 2007<br /><br />Mary Wismer<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/cancer-ii/
