Getting past the past is ever so hard for me... <br />Because the past was better than the present seems to be... <br />I'm trying to write until I have nothing left to say <br />When I can write about something brighter on a happier day <br />It's therapy, but therapy that keeps me stuck in the past <br />Because I'm wondering how long does this depression have to last <br />I'd like to move toward the future, with new friends, new goals and a new plan <br />A plan where it doesn't matter whether or not I am caring about you, a plan in which I am a new man <br />So that if I ever see you again, I could be free to be me again, and perhaps give you a smile <br />So that I can warm my heart, just knowing that I am me, and you are you, both hearts happy all the while <br />So that I may not care so much whether or not you like me, but only care if I like myself again. <br />So that I can just be, just be Chad... so that I can be past this pain I feel deep within. <br />Despondency, heartache, pain to bear... future is there waiting for me, sometime... somewhere...<br /><br />chad fisher<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/getting-past-the-past/
