I wonder why I do this, As I take another hit. <br />I know that when I come down, My life will still be shit. <br />I feel it burning in my lungs, My eyes water like I cry. <br />I know that if I keep it up, I very well could die. <br />I've lost everything to this shit, My relationship, family, and weight. <br />I feel so out of control with this, I've lost reality, hope, and faith. <br />My mom cries when she sees me, But I don't seem to care. <br />I was once my brother's hero, But now I'm never there. <br />I'm losing everything so fast, Falling deeper in a hole. <br />I want so bad to be off this shit, It's getting harder to let go. <br />It's like when you get in this game, There's no getting out. <br />I feel so hopeless I take a hit, And slowly breathe it out.<br /><br />Lil Phoenix<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/meth-still-feels-like-i-m-addicted/
