I lie awake in the middle of the night <br />Rehearsing the speech that would have made things right. <br />All I wanted was a second chance, <br />The moment suspended and slipped from my hands. <br />For all that I had in an instant is now gone <br />How long will I suffer, I know I've done wrong? <br />I wish I could change the past somehow <br />But I will cry later and smile right now. <br />All along she suspected but for me she never expected <br />For I sympathized with her past of the lies and deceit from the men who did not last. <br />I never thought she'd find out but who was I to kid <br />With her intuition to prove the cheating that I did. <br />A slap to the face, first stinging, then burn <br />I knew I deserved, she knew that I earned. <br />She picked up her keys and left everything to me <br />Hurt and betrayed realizing it was never meant to be. <br />I cried, 'don't leave, ' as she struggled herself free <br />And I heard her say, 'Lord, why me? Oh, why me? ' <br />Wallowing in my grief, my self-pity and pain, <br />I decided to stay home and there I remained. <br />Wide awake I lay bruised and burned <br />She never looked back and never returned. <br />She always said if I ever did something wrong <br />That I would realize, 'you never knew what you had until it was gone.'<br /><br />Jason Summers<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/smile-now-cry-later/
