Today I looked at my world <br />And saw my children playing, four <br />Running all around me <br />With dirty fingers, slamming doors <br /> <br />I don't want to leave them <br />I'm not ready to go, but I'm in debt <br />I love learning each and every tick <br />And the date has not yet been set <br /> <br />I know I have to return to work <br />But thinking of it makes me sad <br />I've known the time will come <br />I guess I hoped I wouldn't feel so bad <br /> <br />I love being at home <br />Now even more then before <br />But again I feel it ending <br />Going back just as it were <br /> <br />Me leaving for work each day <br />Being home only to clean, yell and scold <br />I want to watch them learn and grow <br />Sometimes they even do what they're told <br /> <br />This shit gets me extremely depressed <br />I want to pull away to ease the pain <br />Then run back to snuggle them all <br />Quickly going from crazy to insane <br /> <br />Why did God give me another chance? <br />Only to take them away again <br />I've just began to get to know them <br />It's about to all stop now-but when? <br /> <br />I'll enjoy them while I'm here <br />I can't ask for anything more <br />Life has given and taken so much <br />So confusing, my heart stays sore <br /> <br />I'm trying to forget that soon I'll have to leave <br />That this is all coming to an end <br />I'll be a normal, single, working mom soon <br />Just another heartbreak to mend.... <br /> <br />2/20/2008<br /><br />Angelique' Rockwell<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/going-back-to-work/
