I thought I was okay <br />But now I see <br />That nothings change <br />I feel the same way. <br /> <br />This morning I woke up <br />And I was okay <br />In a happy mood <br />For the 1st time this week <br />And it could've lasted all day <br />It would of too but then <br />He asked me what's wrong... <br /> <br />Instantly I wanted to cry <br />I wanted to hold him tight <br />But I knew I couldn't <br />At that point I'd only be going backwards <br />Not forwards, like I need too. <br /> <br />I love him. Always will. <br />But I can't. <br />I can't love him anymore. <br />I can't be with him anymore. <br />I want to turn the page <br />But I can't <br />I need to get over him <br />But I can't <br /> <br />I miss him. <br /> <br />Why does he have to have that look? <br />Why does he have to look at me with those eyes? <br />Why does he have to hug me with arms that make me feel safe? <br />Why does he have to tell me he misses me too? <br />Why does he have to tell me that he still loves me? <br /> <br />Why? <br /> <br />Why can't I stop loving him? <br />Why can't I just let go? <br />Why do I feel like I need him? <br />Why do I want to cry whenever I remember what It use to be like? <br /> <br />Why? <br /> <br />Damn him for being the one I love most.... <br /> <br /> <br />May 2008<br /><br />Allysyn Bryant<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/damn-him/
