upon the request of my mind <br />against that of my heart <br />lost in a world full of thought <br />saying what if? or why not? <br />does true love exist.. <br />if one does not love the other? <br />or is felt but never said? <br />how do we know who is right for who? <br />who do we tell we love to? <br />from many experiences <br />this is what i've learned.. <br />each risk you take is a risk for heartache <br />yet if you don't <br />it'll leave you thinking.. <br />'what if? ' <br />and then sometimes <br />you find the 'perfect' one <br />then all over again.. <br />they're not the one <br />i've given every try <br />to every guy <br />risking heartache each time <br />i've waited patiently <br />been faithful and loving <br />was nothing but nice <br />yet still in the end.. <br />my heart needs to mend <br />i've done it so much <br />i'm used to the process <br />and every single time <br />i'm hurt as much as the last <br />i feel so used <br />as if being watched and laughed at <br />im hurting <br />and no one knows <br />i want to vent <br />a friend to listen <br />but i can't seem to find that <br />i try to better myself <br />but it never seems to work <br />everyone taunts me of how i've gained <br />and i ask myself that too <br />sometimes i feel like i'm going crazy <br />then all of a sudden i'm normal again <br />my mind's a temple of unanswered questions <br />my ears hear all the lies <br />my body is used <br />my hands are all bruised <br />loves a figment of my imagination <br />and until i find it. <br />to me.. <br />it's unreal<br /><br />confused soul<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/unreal-3/
