Can u hear the squeals of laughter, <br />the laugh i laughed when i was a little girl? <br />The princess i wanted to grow into <br />The prince i would never find. <br /> <br /> <br />I never learn my lessons, <br />I gave up looking for reasons, <br />rushing by me are all the seasons, <br />cant hold myself together, <br />breaking into a million pieces. <br /> <br />I always wanted the sun to shine <br />I never wanted to cross the line <br />but baby u left me without the sun <br />and tied my laces so that I could not run. <br /> <br />I laugh when my heart cries <br />the sadness I feel it denies <br />the truth is like a dream <br />that would make anyone scream <br /> <br /> <br />In all this nightmare is a life <br />which I live now and then <br />I dream of love and happiness <br />tears of joy running down my eyes <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />I dream of kites flying high in the sky <br />which I cant reach no matter how hard i try <br />iam a little girl scared of the monsters under my bed <br />somehow they crawled up and got into my head <br /> <br /> <br />'god you are so beautiful' they say <br />I am gonna love you all the way <br />but darling cant you see <br />you love yourself more than me <br /> <br />I bleed where you have cut me <br />I hurt where you have hit me <br />you wipe your hands and look surprised <br />when I lay broken and bleeding by your side <br /> <br /> <br />Wish I could run and hide <br />reach a day where there would be no tomorrow <br />believe me when i say <br />please please please don't go away <br /> <br />Wish I could make more sense <br />build up more in my defense <br />wish I could turn off this living <br />that would end this heart's grieving <br /> <br /> <br />And when Iam gone the world will move on <br />at my grave the flowers will dry <br />the earth my mother and water my father <br />I am safe and my soul heals in the tomb.<br /><br />Reshma Ramesh<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/cant-hold-myself-together/
