Have you ever watched someone press their own self destruct button? <br /> <br />Did you watch yourself from behind the haze that drugs and love induce? <br /> <br />You’re back now, Calm, my Calm, i missed you like a hole in my heart <br /> <br />When you were gone, down, so far i couldn’t even see you, <br /> <br />And your absence, well, it bruised me black and blue, <br /> <br />But i held on for you. <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />You’re smaller now, eyes bigger, tales taller-but true <br /> <br />Because you’ve seen the world now baby, <br /> <br />Left me here to carry on life- except mine was breaking too <br /> <br />I couldn’t run away like you did, like she did, like everyone <br /> <br />Iv ever loved did. <br /> <br />Responsibilities <br /> <br />They’re tied, the shoelaces of life, to my destiny. <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />I stayed; you left, found Him, lost yourself. <br /> <br />Back now, you shake your head at your headstrong will, <br /> <br />Tell me of your faith in me-like i could ever survive in the world you did <br /> <br />Like i could fight all the demons you’re still pushing down with Prozac <br /> <br />Like i could possibly leave everyone in pursuit of love <br /> <br />Like i could stand tall and tell everyone to screw their expectations. <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />And i love you. <br /> <br />Thank you for coming back to me. <br /> <br />Thank you for seeing the light. <br /> <br />Thank you for believing in me-i believe in you.<br /><br />Amy Carmichael<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/my-calm/
