Raped (releasing my screams) <br /> <br />The feelings of loneliness drag me down <br />Always wearing a mask, the face of a clown, <br />The depression is showing its ugly face <br />Alone in the dark, I am in the race. <br />My moods are dark with daunting future <br />The wounds are open, no time to suture, <br />Why do I need to feel this pain? <br />Why do I need to share the blame? <br />Why does it all come down just to me? <br />Why can’t they see my agony? . <br />I’d just like to be happy, no games involved <br />I’d like to be Mother as in the days of old <br />I want to feel human and be loved as such <br />I want to be held, wanted and touched, <br />The RAPE, vulgarity and violation! <br />The filth I am, the contamination! <br />The mind of a mother who cannot share <br />The strength required, their innocence spared, <br />My heads awash with pain and hatred <br />For the person I am so violated, <br />I want that dirty little girl from deep inside <br />To feel cleansed and protected, not thrown aside, <br />I remember it clearly, useless and unworthy <br />Dirty and oozing with pain from my eyes <br />Desperately trying to silence my cries <br />He left his mark where no-one can see <br />Oh why can’t they see what he’s still doing to me? <br />Am I no good? Wicked and impure? <br />He left me untrusting and insecure <br />Just when I think I can release the scream <br />Hope that I wake up to realise just a dream <br />A living nightmare is what I behold <br />No end to the torture he inflicted, untold <br />(c)<br /><br />Dee Phillips<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/raped-releasing-my-screams/
