The problem is metaphoric; <br />I live inside lines <br />which only approximate <br />but do not satisfy. <br /> <br />I'm symbol and artifact <br />but lack the substance of reality; <br /> <br />I kiss sometimes imitating <br />how the book says I should. <br /> <br />I talk <br />imitating <br />my favorite <br />movie star. <br /> <br />The difficulty is <br />I can remember <br />deciding what kind of personality <br />I would have at 13; <br />something low maintenance <br />I thought; <br /> <br />I'm not naturally effusive; <br />rather shy <br />so I decided to be low-key <br />and mysterious <br />and attract attention like that. <br /> <br />My look is straight <br />from the comic book character <br />I most admired at 10. <br /> <br />Hasn't changed much. <br /> <br />I don't know really how to love <br />but feel most in love <br />when I think about it <br /> <br />when I think I have gotten a bargain <br />in the other person; <br />you know <br />getting away with something; <br /> <br />That person is better looking than <br />me-a bargain <br />has more friends than me <br />has more to offer than me; <br />so me with him <br />is a bargain. <br /> <br />I know I should feel more <br />in love and friendship <br /> <br />but I don't really. <br /> <br />So I send cards and gifts. <br /> <br />I know I should be a better parent <br />so I buy and just follow the books; <br />as long as I do what they say <br />no one can criticize me. <br /> <br />You see what I mean? <br />All Metaphor.<br /><br />Lonnie Hicks<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/all-metaphor/
