The Stress overwhelms me, <br />I can’t take no more, <br />So I put on my shoes, <br />And head to the store. <br /> <br />I thought I was strong enough, <br />I thought I could cope, <br />But the need overtakes me, <br />And now there’s no hope. <br /> <br />Straight for the razors, <br />At Right Aid I head, <br />And then to the band aids, <br />To soak up the red. <br /> <br />When I get home, <br />To the bathtub I go, <br />So the blood can flow freely, <br />And no one will know. <br />How week I am, <br />To live this way, <br />Slicing my skin, <br />To get through the day. <br /> <br />The blade to my leg, <br />I move it forward and back, <br />Until my feelings are numb, <br />And the screen fades to black. <br /> <br />Ask me what’s wrong, <br />No words you will hear, <br />But the gash on my ankle, <br />Makes it perfectly clear. <br /> <br />Anxiety hits, <br />On other days too, <br />In side I feel sick, <br />Like I have the flu. <br /> <br />The nausea, <br />It has no end, <br />On the bathroom floor, <br />Much time I do spend. <br /> <br />My head in the toilet, <br />I can’t hold it in, <br />I vomit my brains out, <br />I know it’s a sin. <br /> <br />On still other days, <br />No food I can eat, <br />Held fast by emotions, <br />And goals I can’t meat. <br /> <br />Punishment, <br />At least for me, <br />Is necessary, <br />The way it must be. <br /> <br />Pain is beautiful, <br />I tell you it’s true, <br />If I didn't have it, <br />No day I'd get through.<br /><br />Ashley Seymour<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/pain-is-beautiful/
