Counting time in my mind <br />Look at all the things you’ll find <br /> In my space, familiar face <br />Another memory gone to waste <br /> Broken soul growing old <br />It has already all been told <br /> Seeing red, being dead, <br />A ghost living inside my head <br /> Energy sparks in me <br />A sudden surge that I can’t see <br /> Cut too deep, I can’t sleep <br />All I have to do is leap <br /> Midnight screams, in my dreams <br />Nightmares are my breathing scenes <br /> To my friends, I love them <br />But every story has to end <br /> <br /> Every breath that is left <br />Is one step closer to my death? <br /> And I blink, I can’t think <br />I am running out of ink <br /> Strangling stress, what a mess <br />I’m innocent till I confess <br /> Troubled youth, hunting proof <br />No-one ever knows the truth <br /> Lowered down in the ground <br />That’s where my body can be found <br /> Am I dumb? I am numb <br />When will death and company come? <br /> Feeling lost, bleeding cross <br />Will you deliver me to my boss? <br /> Closing hand, don’t expand <br />Point it high and make a stand <br /> <br /> I will glove all my love <br />I will make you take my drug <br /> Lovely girl, ugly world <br />Let me win and let it swirl <br /> Wipe your tears, I’m still here <br />Living in all of your darkest fears <br /> I have grown all alone <br />In this house that I call home <br /> All I hate, phony fakes <br />No one has what it takes <br /> Embers flick, fires lit <br />Not being able to commit <br /> Tell me why the world will lie <br />I have even failed to die <br /> Counting time in my mind <br />Look at all the things you’ll find<br /><br />Bilal Raja<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/insomnia-65/
