My wishes become <br /> ever <br /> decreasing <br /> circles. <br /> <br />Please don't let it be cancer. <br /> Please don't let it have spread. <br /> Please let it be treatable. <br /> Please give him five years <br /> four years <br /> three years <br /> two years <br /> six months? <br /> <br />Let him see the roses this summer <br /> the rhododendron this spring <br /> the early daffodils <br /> fragile snowdrops <br /> tomorrow? <br /> <br />Please let him live longer, <br /> Please let him live without pain, <br /> Please....no distress <br /> Please...no anguish <br /> Please, let him die now. <br /> <br />The essence of you becomes diluted, day by day <br />and finally I think I am letting go. <br />A thousand pieces of confetti <br />taken in the wind, piece by piece. <br /> <br />Grief is SO exhausting. <br />Each day is now, officially,72 hours. <br />Wearily I climb these stairs, <br />and then SUDDENLY, you give me <br />that look I know. <br />A turn of your head, <br />a wink, <br />and you're back, <br />just for a moment. <br /> <br />So I step back a little, <br />then the climb seems so much harder. <br />You will reach the stair end before me. <br /> <br />The torturous rise and fall, <br />rise and fall. <br />Please. No more rise, <br />only free falling. <br />The unthinkable thought: <br />LET HIM DIE THIS SECOND! <br /> <br />Even when my wish is granted <br />there lies no resolution. <br />My horizons diminish daily. <br />My final wish? <br />Look out for me up there - won't you? <br />My darling Daddy.<br /><br />Sue Stone<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/ever-decreasing-circles-2/
