I have always expected to be happy in my mind <br />there I wanted to experience euphoria <br />and jubilant jubilation, <br /> <br />but instead <br />what I feel is in my body <br />not a voice I am used to <br />listening to. <br /> <br />Where does happy live; <br />apparently not only in the mind; <br /> <br />if it did <br />happy I would be. <br /> <br />But Body Happy <br />is new to me. <br /> <br />It is Peace; <br />unhurried <br />drama-less <br />Anxiety Free. <br /> <br />I am taken away <br />here <br />and not on alert <br />and attention; <br />rather <br />like melting; <br /> <br />ego-less, <br /> <br />which at first felt <br />threatening <br />but I could feel <br />a <br />Thunder <br />in my being <br />spreading <br />tingling, <br />explosion <br />at the end <br />orgasms <br />intensely; <br />a diffusion <br />of self, <br />uncontrollably, <br />a diffuseness, <br />and I <br />and me <br />gone <br />away <br />over-powered-ness; <br />all very different <br />than Mind Happiness. <br /> <br />Could I allow it to happen <br />again? <br />Could I be coached <br />to feel it again.? <br /> <br />We'll see. <br /> <br />Next chapter <br />is tonite.<br /><br />Lonnie Hicks<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/next-chapter/
