Crippling thoughts <br /> <br />They run through my head <br />From almost my time of waking <br />'Til time and beyond of bed <br /> <br />Crippling thoughts <br /> <br />Of loves short-lived <br />And even lost <br />Playback scenes <br />From the past <br />Of one-sided loved <br />Just beyond grasp <br />I hoped and dreamed <br />Of everything <br />Only to receive <br />Frustration <br />And nothing <br /> <br />Crippling thoughts <br /> <br />Of death <br />And not existing <br />Not enough <br />To provoke <br />My own life taking <br />But enough to <br />Provide interest <br />Like a toy of childhood <br /> <br />Crippling thoughts <br /> <br />Of happiness' definition <br />Expose thoughts of <br />Loneliness for which <br />There seems no prevention <br />And the emptiness <br />Of my robotic soul <br />Where wish fulfillment has left <br />A gaping heart-shaped hole <br /> <br />Crippling thoughts <br /> <br />Come out to play <br />And cause desires <br />To sleep away <br />Everything <br />And turn to grey <br />The brightest of <br />A beautiful day <br /> <br />How does one fight <br />The urge to go mad <br />And see the light <br />When one is sad? <br /> <br />(8/5-8/7/06)<br /><br />Jessica Cummings<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/crippling-thoughts/
