There are times I feel my heart cry. <br />Like a part of me is ready to die. <br />I know must go on. <br />But, people don't seem to understand my light is gone. <br />I put a smile on my face everyday, for the whole world to see. <br />But, I know I am not only fooling them, I am fooling me. <br />I feel all alone, in this dark hole I am in. <br />I am afraid I'll never see the light again. <br />I can't stand looking in the mirror. <br />Could this reflection get any clearer? <br />How can I comfort the little girl inside? <br />If, even myself I can't confide? <br />The pain is far more than I can stand. <br />I am in my own big ocean of tears, searching for my land. <br />I don't even know where to begin, to stop the hurt I swallowed myself in. <br />I am scared to find me again. <br />Why can't I be happy, I know I should be. <br />I know I am letting the past's pain imprison me. <br />Why can't I just let go, and move on? <br />Why can't I build up enough courage and strength and be done? <br />I hate myself for being so weak, and afraid. <br />I am at my own war, my emotions fighting their own raid. <br />I am so lost, without any windows to look out, showing me which way to turn. <br />I am to afraid too let myself mourn. <br />To mourn the dreams there once was. <br />To mourn the carfree spirit without a cause. <br />To mourn the little girl there never was.<br /><br />Rebecca Moors<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/there-never-was/
