A distinct pain floods my heart, <br />I long to escape but where to start, <br />I feel crushed as I speak, <br />My words splinter, all is bleak. <br /> <br />I could not conquer such solemnity, <br />But I wish to utter veracity, <br />Truth of what I feel inside, <br />To confess what I've always tried. <br /> <br />And as I slip into my cluttered thoughts, <br />I dig deeper down with what I sought, <br />I broke down all of my hesitations, <br />And just focused on only my emotions. <br /> <br />I set loose my fatuous expectation, <br />And eloped from agitation, <br />But it drags me back and I'm full of doubts, <br />And it pains me as it callously shouts. <br /> <br />Fatal decisions might make things worse, <br />This burden I'm in feels like a curse, <br />For I feel forbidden to like someone like you, <br />And desolation threatens me with what I do. <br /> <br />Now I want to scream out all this agony, <br />For it blinds me with anxiety, <br />As it creates a resilient frustration, <br />For I want to reveal my meek confession. <br /> <br />But after confession, everything changes, <br />Nothing's the same, as it disarranges, <br />The way you treat me before would differ, <br />And discomfort would keep distance as it wavers. <br /> <br />And all these thoughts now trapped my mind, <br />An escape I now hasten to find, <br />Fluttering as it leaves me empty, <br />Trying to end this ruthless agony.<br /><br />Nashy Lamen<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/and-then-everything-changes/
