I'm tired <br />and I'm hurt. <br />I can feel the tear in my heart <br />spreading farther <br />and farther. <br />The depression <br />is deep inside my veins. <br />So deep that I don't need a reason to be sad anymore, <br />I just am. <br />My charade is slipping, falling <br />people are starting to see through <br />finally. <br />They're realizing I'm not as happy <br />as they always thought I was. <br />I've stopped caring <br />as much as I used to. <br />I want to curl up in a ball <br />in my own secluded section of depression, <br />of hell <br />and stay there forever. <br />People are seeing <br />that the smile <br />I used to plaster on my face <br />every morning <br />has worn thin <br />and almost disappeared. <br />People are starting to notice <br />the red marks <br />peeking out from the shoulder of my sleeve. <br />And... <br />I just don't care. <br />Yes, <br />I hear their whispers. <br />Yes, <br />their whispers hurt. <br />No, <br />I'm not going to do anything about it. <br />No, <br />I'm not goind to give them the satisfaction <br />of knowing they hurt me. <br />And I myself <br />have realized <br />I'm not as strong as I would like to be. <br />My heartbeat faint <br />my pencil strokes light, <br />I'm writing this to tell you, <br />I'm not worth waiting for. <br />Nobody could be worse than I am right now. <br />I'm cold with depression <br />and who wants that in their life? <br />I'm sorry that I can't leave your lives completely <br />but, I'll try to make myself <br />small and unnoticeable. <br />That's my promise to you, <br />I know it's small. <br />But maybe, <br />just maybe <br />it'll make up for it a little bit.<br /><br />Heart of Ice Die Die Die<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-m-telling-you-this-now/
