the day before yesterday <br />I was the same man but an idiot <br />who wanted to rise above the sky <br />who wanted to become a better fool <br /> <br />it was then an old beggar whispered <br />wisdom comes not by rise in status <br />serenity is never the need of riches <br />self realization can’t be achieved <br />even with billions of dollars <br />president of a state <br />might be the poorest person of all <br />having an empty-apathetic mind <br />and lost insight <br />what you are running after Kamran! <br />can never make you happy and wise <br /> <br />while walking back home <br />the words of that poor soul <br />kept on echoing in my mind <br />I had to pay the utility bills of this month <br />but I was thinking about self actualization <br />eyes of my lost mind were forcefully opened <br />when my wife asked <br />where have you been? <br />you know what time is it? <br />and look you came home empty handed <br />you didn’t even bring me matching shoes <br />my friend’s wedding is in couple of days <br />but you care for nothing <br /> <br />I heard her silently and ignored <br />went to my study room <br />locked the door then opened my diary <br />and wrote these words for none other than <br />myself <br /> <br />“I know not <br />whether I was made for a particular purpose <br />or just to fulfill the duties of a common man <br />but I know one thing <br />if I want to live content <br />then I can’t afford ambivalence <br />if I choose one <br />I would definitely lose the other <br />and if I choose both <br />I got to keep balance <br />betwixt the two” <br /> <br />I got what I needed to do <br />to mix oil with water<br /><br />Dr Kamran Haider Bukhari<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/ambivalence-10/
