I have been lost in my head for too long, <br />Pondering thoughts that I should leave unharmed. <br />My future's been knocked around <br />So many times now, you can see the scars <br />Inlaid deep in the sides of my head, <br />Holes made bigger than bullets, I dread <br />That I'll never be left alone, <br />Though I'm lonelier than I've ever been. <br /> <br />Please stop this heartbeat of my mind, <br />It runs around breaking the binds <br />Between sanity and commitment, <br />And I take it all, it does not relent. <br /> <br />I am awake in the dead of night, <br />Though my body's asleep, I still feel the fright. <br />If your heart takes control, and it's love it brings, <br />Then why when I'm awake do I feel asleep? <br /> <br />This doubt makes me want to revert to tears, <br />Stringing up tight knots from repressing my fears. <br />But I think now the problem's not me, <br />When I close my eyes, all I see is you <br />Occupying roles in the scenes of my dreams, <br />Once played by slut nobodies I deam <br />No feelings toward then there's you, <br />Whom I care for unconditionally. <br /> <br />Why have you forced this love on me? <br />Causing my eyes blind and my heart to see <br />That it's you who won't let me live, <br />But it's me who wants all you have to give. <br /> <br />I am awake in the dead of night, <br />No I'm not asleep, but a corpse in sight <br />Of a death-end road, of to where it brings <br />An end to it all, just to feel asleep. <br /> <br />I am awake in the dead of dusk, <br />You pull my strings, and I kill the trust. <br />But it's not your fault, you should know it's me <br />Who thinks it's all in a dream, though I'm not asleep.<br /><br />Christopher's Dead<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/there-s-worse-ways-to-die-than-to-die-knowing-someone-loves-you-awake-asleep/
