Why am I bound by memories past <br />of pains that just last and last? <br />Why am I made to suffer and cry <br />from misery I wish I could hide? <br /> <br />Why do I feel so secure in my bed <br />cuddling up to my teddy bear <br />with visions of rainbows in my head <br />knowing I never had her loving care? <br /> <br />Why am I bound by scarred pain? <br />Why do I still seek her love in vain? <br />Why do I seek and never hear <br />her words of love so clear? <br /> <br />Why am I constantly bound in my soul <br />to be so complete and whole <br />but don't seem to have the might <br />to carry on the fight? <br /> <br />Can justice triumph over bad? <br />Or have I just been had <br />by a system devilishly mad <br />created simply to make me sad? <br /> <br />The only words I can hear <br />Is Grandma Dolly's so clear <br />hushing me to sleep <br />and beautiful dreams to keep. <br /> <br />But why in my illness am I bound <br />to hear the soft and kind sound <br />of mother's words so soft and kind <br />that will not come and will not bind? <br /> <br />Why do I still ache in my heart <br />for her love I so need to be a part <br />of in my soul not knowing why <br />I still constantly cry? <br /> <br />Why am I bound by these pains <br />knowing the love I seek is in vain <br />from the woman who made it plain <br />that her love I cannot claim? <br /> <br />Why am I bound by all of this <br />in my state so feverish <br />that I cry like a child in need <br />for her love in words and deed? <br /> <br />Why am I bound in my long illness <br />to cry for her tender caress <br />to help ease my pain so deep <br />lulling me softly to sleep? <br /> <br />Why Am I so bound?<br /><br />Barbara Lynn Terry<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/why-am-i-bound/
