I have suddenly realized I have lost it. <br />I have lost the joy that was in my life. <br />When did that happen? <br /> <br />I don't know the exact day...however <br />as near as I can figure out, it happened <br />slowly. Ever so slowly...almost unperceptivly. <br /> <br />Of course the joy in ones life manifests itself <br />through that in life that one loves. And so... <br />mine...my joy, slowly left...as those I love were <br />no longer in my life. Some of it left, when I <br />moved...and left behind the drooping willows that <br />fronted the house I no longer have. The house <br />where so many beautiful memories were born. <br /> <br />Lots of it left...when the friends of a lifetime <br />were house in places I no longer went to. It left when <br />I stopped the ritual of fine dining in places where I <br />was known by name. It left with scores of doormen, <br />and servers that I had grow found of. <br /> <br />Most of it...most of my joy, left with family...when came <br />the day when holidays and other celebrations no longer <br />was a part of my life. <br /> <br />I miss the joy in my life. I miss all the loved ones <br />that I shall never see again. Some dead...some <br />scattered like leaves in the wind, to the far <br />corners of the earth. <br /> <br />As I grow older, faded memories of joy become less <br />vivid. Until...a day like today...when something <br />.or someone reminds me... <br />Of Lost Joy...And Fading Memories. <br />© Joe Fazio<br /><br />(brief renderings) Joe Fazio<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/lost-it-i-don-t-know-when-or/
