A BAD work report, sick to the soul, ready <br />to die and then you belatedly admit you’ve been <br />experimenting with food despite my allergies, <br />adding a new sauce to all meat dishes <br /> <br />You tried Balsamic vinegar* and Worcestershire <br />sauce* before, earlier it was garlic and curry <br />and oil, now you only stop when I obviously fall <br />ill or go blind, this time I didn’t know <br /> <br />I suffered the pain in silence, THREE doctors <br />visits in a row, dying of discomfort but no <br />hormone problems thankfully, just chronic sinus, <br />I was the fool, could not do my work <br /> <br />A bad soldier at the office, let everyone down, <br />I had NO integrity, was disloyal, didn’t complete <br />anything because this allergy agonised to the <br />point of taking painkillers 24/7 <br /> <br />If you want to destroy me, give me poison to <br />end my life, do not continually humiliate me like <br />this – even if I was a murderer in a former life <br />even if it is my Karma to suffer <br /> <br />Do not poison my food lightly so I linger on, do <br />it massively, kill me efficiently, speed it up, <br />I accept that I am as guilty as the worst criminal <br />and sinner that has ever been <br /> <br />So kill me QUICKLY. The conclusion is I was born <br />to be humiliated and I am thoroughly ashamed of <br />myself, I am an abject, useless human being, <br />too sick to go on with life…. <br /> <br /> <br />*Balsamic vinegar causes my eyes to go out of focus <br />*Worcestershire sauce causes debilitating migraine <br />*The latest experiment caused chronic sinus and headache<br /><br />Margaret Alice<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/2010-06-04-humiliated-rev/
