Mental cramp, when deciding, all muscles <br />tense, sharp pain shooting through my head <br />burning in my ears, suffocating slowly, forcing <br />me to stop, become catatonic, I need another <br />personality to lead my life, my current ego <br />is Damasio* damaged, cannot function <br /> <br />When life became too painful, Eileen Garret* fell <br />asleep, I think I could sleep a hundred years, I <br />need another shock to wake another personality to <br />live my life since the me sitting here cannot work <br />at all, every thought painful, every moment filled <br />with fear, pain like lightning in my head <br /> <br />I’m on the brink of tears, now how to let a strong <br />alter ego take my place, without help, nothing gets <br />done, falling deeper down the Rabbit Hole*, spinning <br />faster within the Abyss, the deep, ice-cold, pitch- <br />black hole of Nothingness… <br /> <br /> <br />*Dr Damasio described how an iron rod penetrated <br />Phineas Gage’s brain and he lost the ability to make <br />decisions as he could not determine priorities, his <br />emotional intelligence quotient was irrevocably injured <br /> <br />*Eileen Garret – Irish medium who discovered she could <br />escape severe physical punishment by falling asleep <br /> <br />*Rabbit Hole – Now almost a universal symbol for the <br />experience of losing control and finding a strange world <br />full of unexpected events, originally created by Lewis <br />Carrol in “Alice in Wonderland”<br /><br />Margaret Alice<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/2010-06-08-damasio-damaged/
