yesterday i got a text saying my friend had died, <br />she had only just had her birthday, <br />we had times that i will never forget, <br />she was the greatest person i had ever met. <br />there really was no one else like her. <br />she had her problems like we all do but what she couldnt tell me, <br />killed her inside. <br /> <br />and then i got a few messages online this time. <br />my mate having another mid-life crisis. <br />telling me how empty he feels inside. <br />and that he wanted to end it all. <br />i wanted to cry, <br />but i didnt, <br />i snapped instead, <br />i told him again what to and how to do it, <br />and once again he said i wont bother you no more. <br />which in turn made me angrier than ever. <br />he has no idea nore cares as he never asks. <br /> <br />this is not a friend this is a drain on my state of mind and emotions. <br />im full of so many mixed emotions i dont know where to turn. <br />i wasnt ready to talk about it and pushed the ones how do care away. <br />to save them from getting the brunt of something that wasnt their fault. <br />and now it i pushed to far. <br />as im on my own now. <br />till the next one needs my helping hand.<br /><br />Kelly Lushi<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/it-all-happened-at-once/
