When I say I'm okay I'm really not <br />I'm just hiding everything inside <br />Just look at the scars and see that I want more <br />But something always holds me back <br /> <br />All the tears I try not cry <br />But that's all I want to do is cry <br />Just wishing that I never existed <br /> <br />Nobody understands me <br />Nobody understands this pain <br />They just think its not a big deal <br />I wish they could walk a mile in my shoes <br /> <br />Then maybe they would see another side of things <br />Maybe they would see the reasons why these scars I love <br />Maybe they would just figure out that I'm not okay <br /> <br />That everything I do isn't good enough for nobody <br />That I'm just ready to breakdown <br />And when I say that I'm okay I'm really not <br />Just look on my left arm and see the visible scar that's fading it will tell you that I'm just ready to give in <br /> <br />March 11 2009<br /><br />ESPN CHICK<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-m-not-okay-even-when-i-say-i-am/
