Remember the gate that <br />i had around my heart? ? <br />i think...well i feel like its broken <br />the barrier i had up long ago <br />has been restored <br />and yet again has shattered <br /> <br />Since the gate is gone <br />and the barrier hardly there <br />my heart feels damaged <br />and unprotected <br />like just anyone can walk right in <br />and cause more pain <br /> <br />It was my magic gate <br />the one that kept me strong <br />as a person... <br />mentally... <br />emotionally... <br />physically... <br />but now i dont even know <br />my heart is just there <br />trusting any and everyone <br />my mind yet again is conflicting <br />with my heart <br />and the three of us <br />yet again discuss my fear <br />of being betrayed...hurt... <br />lied to and alone <br /> <br />I do trust...i have trusted <br />this heart of mine...its just <br />full of love and trust <br />but i cant help but think <br />what if it all is just a phase <br />or isnt real? ? <br />like eventually none of what i have <br />will matter...ill be forgotten <br /> <br />Why cant i just end it? ? <br />why wont it all just go away! ! <br />my paranoid, self-harming thoughts <br />my sadness, my pain <br />my fear of losing what i love <br />my ability to find what i <br />no longer or never had <br />i dont know <br />how much more i can take <br />or how much longer <br />i can take it <br /> <br />~IP23<br /><br />iron panda 23<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/gone-has-my-heart-s-magic-gate/
