She didn't really look at me <br />those silver eyes flash <br />and can blind <br />mirage you <br />and make you confused. <br /> <br />In the long night <br />my mind reconstructs the day <br />often then <br />vacationing <br />from the days reality <br />thereby offering myself comforting <br />from the betrayed, the rejected <br />the scorned and the unloved reality <br />of one who nonetheless <br />lingers inside my Emotions Shadow <br />half-face peering <br />behind doors <br />inside peep holes <br />wondering if in the glancing <br />rejection can be undone <br />be tossed outside reality; <br />from a glance that would say <br />that she was sorry <br />didn't mean it <br />come to her senses <br />find out the other <br />wasn't really for her <br />hurry back <br />to my arms <br />where I <br />kindness in hand <br />would brush her hair <br />and tell her it was alright; <br />this scenario <br />running again <br />and again <br />in my bed-room night <br />I'm face down <br />in the crying pillow <br />where I can let no tears fall. <br /> <br />Up and pacing <br />phone in hand <br />a trembling receiver, <br />dial tone screaming <br />mind saying <br />don't be foolish <br />don't call <br />heart saying <br />it might be she <br />is thinking of me <br />and this call <br />produces a miracle <br />punctuated by <br />my heart filled <br />with a sense of our destiny <br />our meant to be <br />if only she <br />could come to her senses. <br /> <br />I replace the phone <br />into its cradle <br />dial tone dead <br />eyes lifting <br />seeing <br />this is perhaps <br />my day time dream <br />lifting me <br />in this night <br />back into reality <br />with a mending sound <br />coming from where my soul rests. <br />Is this how loves end? <br />Is this how we move on? <br />I lay my self down <br />marking this point <br />as when <br />my healing <br />had begun. <br />enough at least <br />to face seeing her <br />again at the office <br />the next day.<br /><br />Lonnie Hicks<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/in-the-healing-night/
