wishing that loving you doesn't hurt <br />as much as the cold silent loneliness at 4am <br />when the world is just about to wake up <br />while i'm still whispering your blasted name. <br /> <br />you didn't play fair <br />coz you didn't put your heart at stake <br />yet you played with mine and gambled it away <br />knowing too well it was all yours to take. <br /> <br />you said 'i love you' <br />then you said 'goodbye' <br />you said things you never meant <br />so how could you, <br />how could you lie. <br /> <br />there's nothing i could do coz you were never mine <br />you were just the boy who played with my love's design <br />tore it, crush it, broke it in two <br />you were just the boy whom i loved and i still do. <br /> <br />and just as when the sun sets and the darkness creeps in <br />when the stars blink in the night that is as black as sin, <br />i should have known, i should have doubt <br />i should have seen what it was all about - <br /> <br />you were the boy who set out to break my heart <br />for a game, for a nameless price, <br />you rolled the dice and begun the lie <br />for a love story that was destined to die. <br /> <br />for in the aftermath that i cried, <br />when you are nothing but a dark shadow from whom i couldn't hide, <br />i wept bitter tears for a boy who was never mine but whom I loved, <br />i'll be okay, this is my life, <br />i'll be f*cking fine.<br /><br />Izobelle Pulgo<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/dawn-mumbles/
