Standing in self-hatred, <br />drowning in my tears. <br />Looking back on my life, <br />what I've been through the past 13 years. <br />Living in a broken shadow, <br />everything I do and say, <br />wishing somehow things would change, <br />praying for a way. <br />Same old shit just another day, <br />Living this evil life that was created just for me <br />Starving for love, affection, & attention, <br />I know none of this is how it's reall supposed to be. <br />I try to be strong, <br />even though I feel so weak <br />Feel like just giving up, <br />but I won't accept that level of defeat <br />Pretend like I'm always happy, <br />although I'm never really okay <br />Waiting for this pain to end, <br />That I feel every stupid day. <br />It's hard to say what's wrong, <br />when nothings going right. <br />Hard to keep myself going, <br />when all i do is fight <br />This pain is never ending <br />it just goes on and on and on <br />It's all so unbelievably real, <br />I just wish it all was gone <br />Trying to pick myself up, <br />when I've fallen so far and hard <br />But I don't know where I'm going, <br />It's all so very dark <br />My heart is weak, <br />my emotions sore <br />I do my best to never let it show. <br />But deep down inside I feel like, <br />I'm dying and nobody knows. <br />A lot of fucked up thoughts, <br />run through my head constantly. <br />I just wish I didn't live, <br />this life of misery.<br /><br />Candy Simpson<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/anger-213/
