i wish i could draw or paint <br />i wish i could express what i'm trying to say <br />so indescribable my words stifle to find their own meaning <br />and attempt to fit into these molds <br />like square pegs the way i see your face contort <br />misshapen by misunderstanding <br />inexplicable and undeniable <br /> <br />i'm not like you <br />i thought i was but i've realised slowly a creeping suspicion of you and i making me doubt my preconceptions <br />when i sit and look out over the ocean i don't see the waves crashing <br />i don't see the deep blue fear any more <br />what i see is a warm home <br />a safe home <br />like i never had <br />like i've never seen before <br />i hope you remember that everyone has scars <br />some in our heads <br />and some on our arms <br />i have both <br />we have both <br />we can't let that stop us, we won't <br />i'm not perfect, none of us are <br />we all have scars <br /> <br />if i have to spend one more day questioning <br />wondering what the plan is and what i'm doing here <br />then i think i'll go crazier than the voices in my head tell me i am <br />if there was any sense to be made from those vague ramblings and questions of whether or not someone like you exists then i'd like to know <br /> <br />because it's not like my life means less without you it's more like my life means nothing without you <br />and i'm more worried about whether i'll find you than whether i'll wake up tomorrow <br /> <br />and i think it's all a lie <br />anything i find myself writing late at night should be both immature and badly thought out <br />it's as if someone deliberately forged my own thought process <br />parodying my inability to form coherent thought and sentences <br />i thought you'd be able to see through it <br />but evidently not <br /> <br />it's clear to me that my attraction to you is stronger than i once thought <br />my ability to rule you from my mind and my ability to forget you are gone <br />evidently gone <br />it's through this however that i am able to understand something much more important about myself and indeed about you <br /> <br />i'm not like you
