Love ... in despair - <br />- by Indrani Kopal | May 12, 09 - <br /> <br /> - Mother's Day Special - <br /> <br />Forced by poverty and disability, a woman contemplated suicide. She wanted to take her 13 children with her. <br /> <br />Those who wish to help her, please contact Andrew Raju at <br /> <br />Andrew Raju <br />012-612 5146 <br />Malaysian Public Service Society <br />No.146, Taman Bukit Ampangan, <br />70000, Seremban, NSDK <br />Tel: 06-764 9929 <br />Fax: 06-761 1257 <br />email: andrew.mpss@yahoo.com - - - <br /> <br />Trapped in the razor-sharp jaws of poverty, rubber tapper N Parameswari saw hope fading fast. <br /> <br />Fate had also added another cruel twist. She lost three of her fingers in an accident while working at a sawmill in Seremban. <br /> <br />Pushed to the brink, the 29-year-old single mother sought to end her life and that of her 13 children, six of whom are hers. <br /> <br />Her husband, whom she confessed to still loving dearly, had abandoned her to marry her sister, who left her four children in Parameswari's care. <br /> <br />Parameswari also takes care of her brother-in-law's children, whose mother had passed away. <br /> <br />'The pain was unbearable' <br /> <br />Relating her ordeal to Malaysiakini, Parameswari, whose face speaks of a thousand sorrows, said she could not tolerate it any longer. <br /> <br />"The pain of watching my children sleeping in hunger was becoming unbearable. I was disgusted and thought of ending all our lives," she related. <br /> <br />Since the accident, Parameswari has been receiving RM50 every month from the Social Securities Organisation (Socso). <br /> <br />But with so many mouths to feed, the aid coupled with her meagre income does little to alleviate her desperation. <br /> <br />"I use the money to buy one kg of rice, almost every night, my children's only meal will be kanji (porridge) and water... sometimes it is only water." <br /> <br />Despite the hardship, Parameswari refused to send the children, aged between six and 15, to work. <br /> <br />She wants them to go to school and get a sound education so that their lives would be better in future. <br /> <br />Those in primary school receiv
