Former UFC champion Ronda Rousey says she thought about killing herself in the immediate aftermath of her knockout loss to Holly Holm in November.<br />Rousey, 29, appeared on The Ellen DeGeneres Show on Tuesday and spoke openly about her loss at UFC 193 in Melbourne, Australia.<br />"Honestly, my thought in the medical room, I was sitting in the corner and was like, 'What am I anymore if I'm not this?'"<br />Rousey said.<br />"Literally sitting there thinking about killing myself."<br />Rousey said her relationship with her boyfriend, UFC heavyweight Travis Browne, was ultimately what got her through that moment.<br />"I looked up and saw my man, Travis, was standing there," Rousey said.<br />"I'm looking up at him and was just like, 'I need to have his babies.<br />I need to stay alive.'"
