Leonardo DiCaprio wasn't sure he even wanted to win an Oscar the first time he was nominated.<br />"I remember being really paranoid about ever having to go up in front of a billion people," the 41-year-old actor recently recalled to ET.<br />He was 19, and the movie was 1993's What's Eating Gilbert Grape.<br />"I didn't quite have the concept that if you ever gave a speech at the Oscars, like a billion people are watching you," he continued.<br />"So, as soon as I heard that, I remember saying, 'I really don't want to have a speech even prepared, 'cause I don't want to go up there.'"<br />He ultimately did lose that first nomination -- for Best Actor in a Supporting Role, playing Johnny Depp's developmentally disabled younger brother, Arnie Grape -- to Tommy Lee Jones for The Fugitive.
