A message to (anyone) feeling this way: 'I dont really know what to say, or how to say it, but i feel i just need to say the things in my head out, to you or to anyone who have similar or not so similar feelings. Recently, my best friend, james, who i have known since i was 5 killed himself. There was no warning, in fact i saw him the night before, only a few hours before. I was in utter disbelief, as anyone would be. I had been depressed prior, but after this happend i have been thinking and feeling completely hopeless. Everthing I used to enjoy doing, writing and photography in particular have no meaning to me anymore. i know exactly what i want to do, how i want to do it, and all that is holding me back is fear. I am lost. I dont know where to go, or who to turn to. As I am typing, i have gone outside to my garage, and found the means to end the pain i am in. I need help...if anyone will listen, if only for a moment....I am alone and dont know where i will be tomorrow... <br /> <br />'
