A confession of a fruitless search to fill the void which then turns into a confession of how it ruined my life and most of the exceptionally few relationships I had. I am never going to be happy but at least I did learn a few things after being treated like I was some kind of horrendous monster. It's going to help me recover from the lowest point in my life and I hope someone can even glean the smallest bit of useful information from this. I apologize for the emotional ranting but that's just the way it is.
