Lucy Letby sent a card to the parents of a baby she is accused of murdering, telling them that "there are no words to make this any easier".<br /><br />The neonatal nurse's card to the parents, in which she apologised for not being "there to say goodbye", was shown to Manchester Crown Court on Tuesday.<br /><br />The court also heard how officers discovered four notes in her bedroom, including a declaration of love for a doctor she worked with, names of some of the babies she is accused of murdering as well as comments like "help me" and "kill me".<br /><br />Letby, 33, who is accused of murdering seven babies and attempting to kill ten others, began giving evidence for the first time on Tuesday.<br /><br />The prosecution says Letby was a "constant malevolent presence" in their care at the neonatal unit of the Countess of Chester Hospital.<br /><br />It is said she used various means to target the infants, including injections of air into their system and insulin poisoning.<br /><br />Letby broke down in tears while giving evidence in court for the first time on Tuesday, saying "her whole world stopped" when she was arrested.<br /><br />Describing the first time she was arrested, she got emotional, saying: "There was a loud knocking at the door at six o'clock in the morning. My father was staying with me at that point. He was staying there too."<br /><br />She said she was told she was being arrested on suspicion of the murder and attempted murder of multiple babies, and was taken to the police station in her pyjamas.<br />
