<p><br /> Jack Tweed prayed to late wife Jade Goody moments before the verdict in the rape case against him was read out.<br /> </p><p><br /> Speaking on ITV 1's This Morning Tweed admitted: It was horrible. I just went to the toilets and I actually prayed to Jade. And I donât really do that a lot â" I do pray sometimes but I donât really talk to Jade because I just feel stupid but it was probably the first or second time that I have done it. I just sat there for ten or fifteen minutes in the toilet just praying."<br /> </p><p><br /> Tweed also admitted he contemplated suicide after being arrested on two counts of rape.<br /> </p><p><br /> He promised to make every effort to be in the lives of Goody's children, as she had wanted: "My main concern was the boys because I thought as soon as I got arrested I thought âthatâs itâ, Iâm never going to see them again. I was spiraling out of control anyway and then this happens. Thatâs the main thing that broke my heart thinking that I was never going to see them again."<br /> </p><p><br /> In relation to his future antics on nights out Tweed went on to say: "Iâm a twenty two year old boy, you only live once. But Iâm not going to live how I was living, Iâm still going to have a few nights out, and Iâm still going to go on holiday with my mates because Iâve not been away for two years⦠I donât wanna waste my life."<br /> </p>
