When people look into my magic box, they see it is empty. <br />Little do they know! <br /> <br />It holds all my dark secrets and nightmares. <br />I have put them all on hold. <br />I will deal with hem one by one, until I am old. <br /> <br />The thing is I don't know where to start. <br />Do I start with rape, torture, or the pain in my heart? <br />Am told the begining is a usually a good start. <br />So that's just where I went, to try and part. <br /> <br />I dealt with my mum first. <br />She beat me, tortured me, even took my god damn virginity. <br />Mum is just a word to me, a person who only gave birth to me. <br />When I was old and strong enough to stand on my own two feet, <br />I told her what I thought of her, with words ever so neat. <br />I then wiped her from my memory and emptied her from my magic box! <br /> <br />Next was partner of fourteen years and father to our children. <br />He raped me, played games with my mind, held a gun to my head. <br />I thought I was dead. <br />He gave me no choice, I upped and left. <br />My kids were affected so bad. <br />I was gone, he turned to drink. <br />His liver packed in. <br />He now lays in the grave-yard, dead. <br />I wiped him from my memory and emptied him from my magic box. <br /> <br />Last but not least was the death of my grand-parents. <br />They both died of cancer and suffered immensely. <br />I was with them to the end, feeling their pain, tears of sorrow. <br />Knowing they will not be with me to-morrow. <br />I visit them by their graveside, I chat to them, some-times cry, so much sorrow still inside. <br />Am sure the grief will ease in time, as I keep their memories in my mind. <br />I have wiped the cancer from my memory and emptied it from my magic box. <br /> <br />My magic box is now empty. <br />No more nightmares of which there have been plenty. <br /> <br />My mind and my magic box are two of the same. <br />They are both now empty of sorrow and pain, <br />Only to be filled up again.<br /><br />Deborah Ashdown<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/my-magic-box/
