I try to brath but when i try i choke <br />my ribs are in pain cuz they are broken <br />as my eyes change color to fit my mood <br />a dark black they turn a tint of red <br />lingers through <br />my body temperatur rises <br />and i wake up in cold sweat <br />this pain i feel is hurtiung me <br />baby why cant you see <br />look at me and explain <br />everything else is so messed up now <br />i only have myself to blame <br />i know i am a monster <br />and i know i am mean <br />but i have 2 hearts <br />they pump slowly but atleast are alive <br />they have been through so much <br />i dont think they will survive <br />i try to talk but no sound comes out <br />whats wrong with me? <br />cant talk and i cant breath <br />i wish my wrists were bleeding <br />then i wouldnt care cause maybe the pain <br />inside would be gone for a while <br />the blade against my soft wrists <br />sinking in deeper as i slide it across <br />this is the thing i crave so much <br />to see my blood drip and to <br />see this blow <br />i hate that you dont know how i feel <br />cuz your looking past me <br />not at me <br />so im invisable to you <br />the one who made me stay alive <br />the one who wanted me to live this life <br />my hearts are hurting <br />the pains in my eyes <br />i wish i could cry again <br />i got my happy ending but payed the price <br />a little twist of darkness <br />im stuck in a nightmare <br />a used to be dream <br />will things go back to normal <br />or will they stay the same?<br /><br />Sandy Vanity<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/no-escape-24/
